I'm sure you're wondering what the hell has happened to the rabbit, aren't you? Well, I've been wondering whether I should talk about it on the blog because you people actually know me. But, I'm secure enough in our friendship that I've decided to come out with it.
I guess I'm a bit bummed. Have been for a while. Not sure why. It's just a feeling of being lost and a failure and a fraud. A general feeling of malaise. Last night, on The History Channel, they had a thing on the Seven Deadly Sins and the one I'm committing right now is sloth, btw. Anyhow, there you have it. That's why I haven't been writing. I am normally a very optimistic person, and even when I have slumps, they usually disappear within 3-4 hours. A day, max. But, I'm just not sure why I am not shaking this.
Mr. Nonny Nu says that I should make an effort to actually make this a new year, a new beginning. I'm trying. But all that is just reminding me of how old I am and that time is marching on.
I am betting that you've all heard of Twilight (the movie) and have also heard of the Twilight series (the books). (Wow, I'm really spilling all my guts now, but that will be my New Year Resolution--to be more truthful and write more about my feelings this year on the blog.) I have a very rich imagination and the only thing I have not been able to fantasize about are married and unavailable men (I just don't feel right doing that). I'm talking about the innocuous fantasies like when Christian Bale opens the door for you or has dinner with you. Get your minds out of the gutter. The girls will know what I'm talking about.
Okay, back to the story. So, Midge and I went to see Twilight in early December. I had low hopes for it, thinking that it was a teeny bopper flick, which it was. But, the story itself was so interesting, that I bought the book that night and finished it the next day. I then finished the entire series in the next week (three additional books).
Alright, don't laugh, but I'm gonna let you in a ridiculous secret. I am not waiting for some vampire to bite my neck. What is troubling me is that I can't even imagine myself in that storyline because those characters are so dang young. I mean, I feel completely ridiculous. Wow, that has never happened to me before, not being able to put myself in a storyline, no matter how removed from reality it is. And because of what? Age. I'm 33.5, and absolutely nothing exciting has ever happened to me. No hostage situation, no bank robbery, no nothing. I can't even say it's going to go downhill from here because there is no lower score on the Excitement Scale than the one my life has right now. And, no, I'm not talking about my life at this point. I'm talking about my entire life.
Kill me now.
On a lighter note, I am starting a new project and will be running some polls throughout the next several months to ask for your opinions on the project's direction. Your input will be greatly appreciated.
Monday, January 5, 2009
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Just came across your site while looking for Chinese idioms and I will be reading your posts.
Good Job.
You are only 33.5 years old, and I am, uhmmm..., soon-to-be 50 years young. Things always get better. Uhmmm... I lied again just like I lied about my age just a little bit.
Wish I could offer you a Chinese idiom to cheer you up.
now, listen up, old woman, and you listen good. today is the first day of the rest of your life, you dig? life throws you lemons, sell 'em at a discount. eat to live, not live to eat. no one rides for free. you getting my drift? am i coming through clear to you? accentuate the positive, eliminate the negative. find your ass with both hands. joy to the fishes in the deep, blue sea, joy to you and me. what's the sun without the moon, huh? take a ride on heavy metal; it's the only way that you can travel down that road. soda water can get that out. and, remember:
foolish man give wife grand piano, wise man give wife upright organ.
i hope this helps.
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One word: Salzburg!
Or a vacation somewhere sunny where you start making some vitamin D?
The whole series??? You're so ahead of me. Next time i see you I am borrowing the books :)
As for sloths...just back from Costa Rica - I discovered they're not actually THAT slow. So get moving NN! but yes, time marching on...boooo! boooo! i hear ya.
sluggy, Mr. NN toyed with the idea that it might be SAD. I don't know, though. I've NEVER had it this bad.
And, Midge, this is all your fault. You and your dang, "Let's go see Twilight!!"
Oh, but Little Sheep was SOOOOOOO GOOOOOOD...
One word: Salzburg!
is scottsdale close enough? we can always pick up some vitamin d at the supermarket.
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Or, I could go upstairs and get a few zaps from the tanning bed. Hey, that thing hasn't been used in ages...
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